More hodgepodge

Today is the anniversary of the Oklahoma City bombing. The had a thing on NPR about it but I've come to dislike the morning announcer on KBIA so I turned it off. I thought about it as I was getting ready for work and came to realize it was yet another ignored indicator that the so-called war on terror didn't really start in 2001. That wasn't even the first incident of domestic terrorism. I wonder if we're really "American, land of the ostrich" with our heads stuck in the ground. I know we posses an incredible faculty for self denial but to have it blatantly confirmed is disconcerting.

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Tricia talked with me last weekend and she told me she'd like Matt to stay here for a year. I didn't agree outright but said rather that we should see how it goes over the summer and then reevaluate things.

I think I realized a little what bothers me about the situation. It's not that, were I in a relationship, I would be against having children. Hell I love my neices and nephews (and yes I have taken care of them for a week and a half so the ability to "give them back" doesn't necessarily factor in greatly) but it's the lack of choice. Perhaps I am a bit of a control freak and not being able to influence the decision is what bothers me. The feeling of helplessness. If this is it then I should be able to process it and get past it to make the best of things without getting even more bitter in my old age! ;-P